clarity, boundaries, & saying “fuck yea” to whatever’s next

My hours got cut at work. And I am amped. I’ve bounced back and forth between I CLEARLY MUST HAVE A SUCCESSFUL FREELANCE CAREER DOING WHAT I LOVE. and Realistically, having the structure of a normal desk job is good for me. Maybe I should commit myself to a full-time schedule? Is that the responsible […]

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Day 28 of 30: Clarity comes when I stop trying to do its job.

I am learning that Clarity comes without trying. When not forced. It’s a lot like bubbles. If I chase the bubbles and grasp at them, they’ll pop and float away. This knowledge doesn’t stop the old pattern of me trying to figure everything out, to force Clarity. When I get foggy about something or there’s […]

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Day 101 of 365: why I cut my hair at 2:30am.

3.5 years since my spontaneous spiritual awakening, and there are still days of these intense “oh shit…” realizations. It’s like, on a spiritual/emotional/mental level, I’ve somehow hit the ZOOM OUT button and gotten a clearer view of myself, who I am, and who I’m not. Oh–And who I’ve been trying to be. And it’s not […]

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Day 94 of 365: “i’m fine, thanks” and other lies.

I tend to put too much pressure on myself. As if this one post or this one speech or this one BJ or this one dinner is going to be the be-all-end-all for a person or, or life-changing for a group of people. I constantly pressure myself to perform. A lot of times, I hesitate […]

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Day 83 of 365: 2017 is my year of clarity, and has taught me…

Every year, I pick one or two words has the THEME for that year. My focus. 2017 is the year of Clarity. Mostly I picked Clarity because I wanted clarity on how to make a shit pile of money doing what I love. Y’know, because that’s an easy answer. UNIVERSE, MAKE IT CLEAR HOW I CAN […]

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Day 56 of 365: why I’m grateful for depression – a video

This is the second time I’ve written today’s blog entry. The first one put Frodo’s invisibility cloak on and is unable to be seen. That’s coo. I can redo it. I have officially survived this last depressive episode, which seemingly came out of nowhere. While in the stickiness of depression, it’s hard to know up […]

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Day 41 of 365: NOT ‘SPOSED TO DIG

I’ve noticed an increasing number of posts, articles, and coaches discussing the importance of feeling and expressing repressed emotions. This is fabulous. Hooray for being alive during a time of transforming the way we look at emotions, vulnerability, and the role of our internal world. Primarily, though, the focus seems to be on the “negative” […]

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