the adventures of carl the blob

From the outside, Carl appeared to be quite similar to the other blobs. Really, the main difference was how he saw the world, how he felt, and what he thought. But, since this was all internal, no one else could see it. And they certainly didn’t understand it. The more he opened his mouth and […]

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the infamous jen novel text message and why having a blog helps me keep friends

This just in: NOT EVERYONE EXPERIENCES LIFE THE WAY I DO. Here’s what’s even crazier… Most people have NO INTEREST in experiencing life the way I do. You mean… You don’t want to learn life lessons like you’re on a constant MarioKart speed boost? You don’t want to exchange long rambles about all aspects of […]

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creative diarrhea.

In hindsight I should have made the word “DIARRHEA” in cursive. Because. Y’know.┬áIt flows better. I DIGRESS. I imagine that if you’re a human and you’ve read a book ever, you’ll have heard of “creative block” or “writer’s block.” People go on friggen’ RETREATS and pay DOLLARS to push through this stuff. I used to […]

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Day 301 of 365: relatively particular

I’m learning that I’m kind of an odd bird. Like, I’ve worked really hard to expand my awareness and become less… I dunno… overanalytical or contradicting. And to overall tone down the inherent crazy female brain I have. I hesitate to write something like that because I anticipate someone being like “THIS IS THE PROBLEM. […]

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Day 289 of 365: cocoon of safety

Striving for a life of awareness, of forward progression, of knowing better and doing better, of being mindful and understanding and loving while also having healthy boundaries and self care without being too selfish, of communicating openly and honestly and sharing emotion without speaking irrationally from emotion, of trusting and having faith even when evidence […]

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Day 287 of 365: just do the damn thing.

I know I’m here to speak. You could ask 15 year old Jen, 25 year old Jen, or yesterday Jen what she’s here to do, and the answer would be something along the lines of: “write, speak, and teach.” Except there’d be progressively less passive aggressive attitude as the age of each Jen increased. I […]

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Day 273 of 365: Who you are without an audience?

I didn’t pray a lot as a child, but I do remember one prayer I repeated often and desperately: “DEAR GOD, PLEASE MAKE ME POPULAR.” That was my focus. I was so desperate for people to like me. And not just a few people. A LOT of people. ALL of the people. All of my […]

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Day 272 of 365: transcending “that’s because…”

“You could convince me to buy a bag of dog poop,” a young coworker said to me last week. I worked in and excelled at sales for many years, and was told I could sell ice to an Eskimo. I always saw it as a compliment and a good thing, but when young’n at work […]

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Day 270 of 365: feel the suck. get the prize.

My boyfriend is a generally happy person. He lives his life in the middle numbers on the 1-10 scale. That’s kind of his base level of existence. When I get in wonky places, he’s able to easily snap me out of them. He’ll call me on my shit if I’m having a pity party, or […]

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Day 264 of 365: life is a carousel

Life is a carousel. With limited options of animals to ride. In time, all the creatures look the same. Eyes, mouths, legs, tails, up and down in predisposed rhythmic motions. Animal instincts ripped away, obsolete. I take a defibrillator to my perspective to jumpstart gratitude. Focus on details. Appreciate minutia. Spots. Stripes. Hues of fur. […]

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