My doodle pen+pad just stopped working, so now we’re on to the written word portion.
I’m learning that I had never really allowed myself to fully feel into these states of being. I’d experience them in short spurts, and would quickly close my heart off to them…
(Because if I don’t feel good, then the drop into feeling bad won’t be so hard!)
NOW I am opening my heart to them in the same way I open my heart to the painful emotions.
And it’s sort of rocking my world.
Like… You know when you’ve had a big fight or a meltdown and feel exhausted the next day?
That’s how I feel. I have an emotional hangover from feeling really good.
I’m having to gently pet my amygdala, reminding myself that it’s okay and good and safe to feel the happy feel-good feelings. Because… What’s the worst that can happen? They don’t last? There’s pain? I’VE ALREADY GOT THE FEELING-PAIN THING DOWN PAT.
Inner Guidance says: Enjoy the moment for what it is, using the fact of impermanence as even more of a reason to ground into the present and fully inhabit your life. There is a natural ebb and flow to life, emotions included. Situations change. People change. Keep in mind, though, that there is an unending supply of these feelings. You’re not working with a limited supply. You needn’t hold off on feeling joy or excitement or love; they deserve your attention just as much as sadness, anger, and fear.
With elevated heart-rate and a twinge of over-analysis,