Day 71 of 365: I am not broken – a poem

I am not broken. You try to “fix” me, To plug in different variables Attempting to solve the problem Of my discomfort. I pray your intentions are pure, That you want to help me. And yet… It seems you want me to “feel better” Because you are uncomfortable With my darkness and pain.   I […]

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Day 70 of 365: overdid it.

Yea. So. I’m writing this from blob form on my sofa. Using my cell phone. Because I overdid it today. And possibly yesterday I was wiped out for a few weeks, which forced me to really be gentle with myself. Which recharged me. And then I suddenly had more energy and was like, ALRIGHT! BACK […]

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Day 69 (teehee) of 365: throwing out the eraser

“I’m totally closed off to you right now,” I said to my therapist. “Okay,” she said, in her normal, allowing tone. She lightly smiled in the way that she does when she’s excited that I’m expressing distaste (because that’s a challenge for me–to tell someone they’ve pissed me off). “Last week, I was in here… […]

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Day 68 of 365: I am angry because…

Aaannndd the darkness continues. Which is fine. I decided to give myself the opportunity to release some of the anger I had maybe been carrying around with me. I opened a word document and wrote about 5,000 words nonstop. I didn’t know I had that much anger in me. I feel like I could write […]

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Day 67 of 365: 18.3% complete

When I saw that today was the 67th day, I was like, “Oh my! I’ve come so far! This is going by so fast!” And then I did math stuffs and discovered that I’m less than 19% complete with this daily embracing the unknown + writing about it gig. Still quite a bit to go. […]

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Day 66 of 365: old people can still dance

I enjoyed a girls’ night this evening at a bar (with fabulous live music!) where 95% of the patrons were 60 and above. And holy Kevin Bacon, could they dance! I had a few moments of getting tears in my eyes while I saw the older married couples… because I’m a romantic and because of course […]

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Day 65 of 365: off with her head!

I  woke up this morning after about 3 hours of sleep feeling a fire within me. It’s a fire I haven’t felt in a few weeks. (It’s a little spark more than a fire. I don’t want to breathe too hard and blow it out.) In the past, I’d say, “THE DEPRESSIVE EPISODE IS LEAVING! […]

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